Last end of year holidays

Hello! It's coming to the end of the year and guess what - I only have 11 months of schooling left (!!!) 

Is that bloody exciting or what. Less than a year till I am totally free to do whatever I like, till the end of the last paper of the horrendous syllabus I'm taking. I don't know if I'm looking forward to it or dreading it though. Considering how quickly this year has breezed past, next year would undoubtedly come at the same breakneck pace. The seemingly endless lectures that bring me to tears and make me question my intelligence, the struggle to complete tutorials and the inevitable exhaustion that will come with it. 

To be honest I really slacked off this year choosing to have fun more than study but I really need to buck up for next year. The exams are no joke. No matter how much I despise the studying, subjects and the pressure I suppose that (no matter how much I despise it) the fact is, the better your grades, the better my future would be. I mean, after 6 years of work it would be nice to get good results. 

This makes me think about my pw results, since it's the only paper that's done. The results will be out next year and I think that I'm doomed to get a B. Honestly, I feel like my work has been substandard and it definitely doesn't deserve an A in any way. I have so little references, so little foot notes and substantiation. Not to mention shitty printing and printing images in black and white (thanks to my laziness). I'm screwed. My pw experience was just bad. Lesson learnt. 

I'm also removing all the distractions from my life and I'm attempting to be more organized. Filing and packing my room is hell. But if it helps me study more efficiently I would. 

I'm so afraid. Whilst others have been studying this holiday I've been gallivanting around, spending around half the holidays overseas and hence not studying and working to earn money. I don't know what I'm doing but I feel like this holiday has been the most fulfilling for me. I've done the most and experienced the most, but I've done no school related work as per normal. 

I don't know if New Years resolutions work but I'm going to spend some time mulling over it these few days before the year ends. Maybe I'll have a list and post it up, I don't know. I'm already starting to plan out my great after a-levels plan (what a weirdo, yes) so yes. 

Cheers to a great end to an amazing year. I might just summarize everything I've done. That might be cool. Goodnight.