Sickly days

I FEEL LIKE CRAP

Woke up yesterday only to feel bloody nauseous and ran into the toilet to puke. Then tried some herbal tea and ended up puking it up. The medicine that I ate after that came up too. Life sucks. 

Then I had a fever and still felt really nauseous and bad and ugh I don't even know what's wrong with my body but I feel like I can't do anything. I literally lay in bed the entire day and snoozed because that's what sick people do and hence I didn't manage to do anything productive at all. 

Which means that I still have to revise for the back to school tests and complete a whole shitload of work. I need to get my life sorted out lol. 

And the bloody upstairs neighbors are being bitches with all that renovating shot they're doing it's annoying the crap out of me wtf all that drilling and hammering shit.

On the bright side, my cheap fluffy pajama pants from china is finally coming to use! 

Let me just wallow and mope about my pathetic immune system and weak body I feel like I've lost about 2kg from only being able to eat porridge. 

I have no idea how I'm going to survive when I go back to school. This seems like a very daunting year ahead. 

Last end of year holidays

Hello! It's coming to the end of the year and guess what - I only have 11 months of schooling left (!!!) 

Is that bloody exciting or what. Less than a year till I am totally free to do whatever I like, till the end of the last paper of the horrendous syllabus I'm taking. I don't know if I'm looking forward to it or dreading it though. Considering how quickly this year has breezed past, next year would undoubtedly come at the same breakneck pace. The seemingly endless lectures that bring me to tears and make me question my intelligence, the struggle to complete tutorials and the inevitable exhaustion that will come with it. 

To be honest I really slacked off this year choosing to have fun more than study but I really need to buck up for next year. The exams are no joke. No matter how much I despise the studying, subjects and the pressure I suppose that (no matter how much I despise it) the fact is, the better your grades, the better my future would be. I mean, after 6 years of work it would be nice to get good results. 

This makes me think about my pw results, since it's the only paper that's done. The results will be out next year and I think that I'm doomed to get a B. Honestly, I feel like my work has been substandard and it definitely doesn't deserve an A in any way. I have so little references, so little foot notes and substantiation. Not to mention shitty printing and printing images in black and white (thanks to my laziness). I'm screwed. My pw experience was just bad. Lesson learnt. 

I'm also removing all the distractions from my life and I'm attempting to be more organized. Filing and packing my room is hell. But if it helps me study more efficiently I would. 

I'm so afraid. Whilst others have been studying this holiday I've been gallivanting around, spending around half the holidays overseas and hence not studying and working to earn money. I don't know what I'm doing but I feel like this holiday has been the most fulfilling for me. I've done the most and experienced the most, but I've done no school related work as per normal. 

I don't know if New Years resolutions work but I'm going to spend some time mulling over it these few days before the year ends. Maybe I'll have a list and post it up, I don't know. I'm already starting to plan out my great after a-levels plan (what a weirdo, yes) so yes. 

Cheers to a great end to an amazing year. I might just summarize everything I've done. That might be cool. Goodnight. 

The calm before the storm

Hello. Apparently, I'm back with another post! I've been drafting ideas in my head for this post for so long that I never got to doing it. I suppose this can be attributed to my constant bustling around finding things to do. It seems like I'm never able to find the time to sit down and do some work i.e. do some revision or reading. At least I've been putting the time to somewhat good use with work and everything.

Work.

Ah, I've officially "retired". I had a self-declared last day of work this Wednesday after a couple of weeks of frantic working to earn more money. It was fun and utter chaos. I wanted to go out with a bang and wreck havoc and unfortunately, that was what happened. I accidentally broke 16 coffee cups. And I would've gotten into huge trouble but thank god for the lovely workmates who quickly covered for me and helped me clear it up. Also took some gourmet tea bags home (they're really good and I'm a tea person anyway) and threw some coffee beans around.

It was my first experience working and although it wasn't the greatest I still had fun because of the people working with me. The money was pretty alright too but I'll get a better paying job next time. The hotel industry is just pretty dull behind that grand exterior honestly. I also hated "serving" people in the sense that I hated obeying and having to do their every single whim. The managers weren't all that great either.

But I feel like I've learnt a lot and its been a great eye opener for pampered little me. I suppose you must start somewhere and I'm glad that I've experienced what it's like to be at dirt bottom. I've also learnt proper etiquette along the way.

Hooray for me!

Life's been good too. Have gone out a couple of times. Had loads of fun. I'm going to be traveling soon. Will be going to China, Malaysia, Cambodia and Thailand this year so my time from around a few days from now till the end of the year is going to be jam packed! I'm so excited yet I'm dying inside as I still have so much more work to do. Its just so exhilarating yet exhausting at the same time.

Since I'm traveling so much, I'm also contemplating vlogging the various countries that I go to. I mean, since I'm traveling so much, might as well do something interesting, new and useful, no? I'll be doing loads of shopping too. Exciting!

Cheers. At the very least I'm enjoying my last year-end school holidays. YOLO. Its amazing yet scary to think that in a year's time, I'd be doing my A levels. Am I really ready to do this? And how time has passed.

Reflections of a vile person

I have been extremely vile these past few weeks. And I'm so disappointed and I'm honestly just disgusted with myself. I've been judging others so much that I've just ended up as messed up and ugly as society is.

Recently, I've been watching/observing some human interactions...you can say. And I always think "Ah, the ugliness of human nature." Stress shows people's true character. And how you act in those moments, moments of tension, moments which may not seem as critical as it seems then, really reveals what a person you are I suppose. And then I end up disgusted at some because of how they reacted in a situation, and I feel like I'm brought back from that hopelessness whenever one (that society perceives as abnormal/is prejudiced against) is actually the most humane of them all.

I've never really been one to be purposefully very unpleasant in that sense. I'd always try to be nice to people - you get what you give. Also, I didn't like the idea of hurting or putting people down. But recently, when times have been getting tough in life, I've been going against this and I've totally became worse than what I was before. I'm a total hypocritical bitch.

I know that I'm a bitch (in general). I dislike a lot of things and after accepting that there is nothing wrong with being bitchy and snarky, I do gripe about certain things. But I think that I've overdone this this time, and its just filling me up with negativity. It feels like my entire being, my "soul" has been taken over by the devil. Its currently so filled with hatred and unpleasant thoughts that it has seeped into whatever I do and say and I feel like I cannot stop it.

What happened?

I think that I've had it with people. I need time to sort myself out in that sense. I think that I need therapy. I'm going to remove whatever is causing me to be this way from my life.

I am such a shitty person. I probably deserve everything that is thrown to me in life for being such a wicked and vengeful bitch. Let me die a spinster that owns cats. I honestly don't mind. Loneliness is probably a small price to pay for not unleashing my disgusting personality and character on the world anyway.

My 2013 Taiwan Trip/ Updates

This year, I've been pretty blessed to have travelled quite a fair bit. More than usual, in fact. So far, in March I've been to Phuket, gone overseas for a literature trip to the United Kingdom in June, visited Indonesia after a long time for church camp, and the latest has been a family trip to Taiwan. Not counting the various trips to Malaysia too. I'm quite fortunate. But I feel totes guilty for travelling so much too.

Anyway, it was summertime in Taiwan when we went, so the weather was great. I think we went for 10 days? But I obviously can't remember a everything now so I'm just taking the pictures off my phone and I'm going to elaborate on what I can.

Whilst waiting for the pictures to load I'm just going to talk about the shopping there (because what else can a teenage girl do). I was pretty much shopping wherever we were because there were just so many stores around and the clothes were really cheap. Like 100 Taiwanese dollars for most things which amounts to slightly over $4.

But out of all the places that I was shopping at, I've got to say that my favourite was probably Wu Fen Pu. It was heaven. I've been there once before on a school trip but I didn't get anything because I was much younger (at 15) and I didn't dare experiment too much. Not to mention some of my clothing choices were...questionable and my friends would tell me not to buy it. Also, the need to keep with the crowd caused me to shop much less than I would alone. But this time, I went literally insane there.

Within a minute of walking into the streets, I had already picked up a top. That's literally how insane it is there. I really bought a lot - my hands were full after 2 hours at that place. But the thing is, I spent only less than $40. Which is insane. I would definitely go back there. If only I had more time to trawl through the shops there. I only covered 2 streets with my family so imagine if I went even further.

Oh, the Daiso there is really cheap too. Its only $1.60 and the range of stuff there is so much more varied.

Anyway, on to the pictures! I took these with my iPhone so I apologize for the lousy quality. But I'm actually quite pleased with how they turned out.

 

So on the second day in Taiwan we went up to this place called Jiu Fen. It was pretty touristy though, and the sidewalks were hell to walk up. Please don't eat at one of the restaurants there, they're rip offs. Also, the time taken to travel there by train is hell if you don't get a seat. 

 

 

On the bright side, the view (when you're halfway up) is pretty good even though its misty here.

 



 

The entrance of the street. 

 

 

A panorama once I've reached the top. T'was a misty day. At least it wasn't hot so we weren't dying. The street ends pretty abruptly though, I was pretty disappointed when I reached the end. 

 

 

Touristy restaurant places that are out to get you! Its really not worth eating there. Total rip off. 

 

 

Fruit store that we came by when we walked out of the old street! The variety of fruits there is amazing. Have you ever seen red bananas before? And they taste pretty good too. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side.



 

 

View of the countryside on the way back to Taipei. 

 

 

I think we went to the eastern region of Taiwan after that. We went to Hua Lien if I'm not wrong. I love the steamed dumplings there though, it was average but I just love dumplings pardon me for being incoherent.



 

 

The Taiwanese have the cutest dogs that allow them to put all sorts of cute things in their hair. If only my dog would allow me to do that... 

The beach at Hua Lien! It was quite dull but still beautiful. My parents are getting too old. Scenery is their favourite thing to do when we go travelling now. We kids were literally snoozing throughout the trip up the mountains.

I still can't get over how peaceful and strangely alluring it was there. If only I lived near a beach like this. I think I'd spent most of my days and nights staring out into the sea and dreaming.

 

 We went up the mountains and even went down several times to trek through the place.

PEARLS. I LOVE PEARLS. I always purposely choose my dessert based if they have pearls in them or not. Its so unhealthy but I'm just obsessed with chewing on them and their taste.

 

 

We went on this boat trip thing at Sun Moon Lake (I think). I didn't really enjoy it though. It started raining halfway through. And it was so crowded with tourists that I really didn't enjoy myself. 

The turquoise water amazes me.

This poor fella was wandering around the square and it was limping. It was old and those eyes were so pitiful. I think that the limp really got to me. So we gave it some food.

The sky was yellow in the evening. Amazing, no?

Seemingly pretty popular dessert place that we stopped by when we went back to Taipei.

Taiwan this time round was pretty awesome. I guess I was able to see a whole different side of it as the previous time that I went it was to play softball. I really enjoyed being a tourist in general and exploring the place with my family. We've never really been on tours anyway - we suck at following the time/aren't interested.

The best things to get in Taiwan (according to me): Tea, Clothes (Just look at the sales section), Desserts.

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I apologize for the sporadic flow of thoughts but I really cannot remember anymore and its amazing that I've even decided to post something at this moment of time when I'm supposedly busy with Project Work. Someone just kill me now thank you.

I'm off to Cambodia with the school this December for some volunteer work. Quite excited but rather anxious because I've never done anything remotely similar before and I'm afraid that I won't survive in the island that we're visiting. I'm also thinking of only bringing $20 there to spend on food. I'll take a rain check on that though since its 9 days anyway. Who knows what I might find there anyway?

I'll post more once this hell is over next Wednesday. I have so much that I need to get off my chest but I just can't wait for Wednesday to be over. In all sincerity, Project Work has been hell. But I don't think I'm ever going to make a post on it. Ever.

I hope that everyone enjoys their holiday! I've been working a little, earning some extra cash that I'm going to save for next time. I'm pretty happy how my savings have been coming along. Am going to spend this holiday brushing up on school work, art, piano and living life in general.

Its my last November-December school holiday ever, I can't help but be afraid of the future. Next year is making me panicky already. Am I ready for the A Levels? Only time will tell. But I'm going to give it my best shot. I owe myself and my parents that much. I will not be a burden ever again.

Cheers.